A Change of Heart?

I really wish that sleeping was not necessary. I sleep so much every day. I would have so much more time if I didn't, and I would probably get so many more things done. Whenever I have a day to myself I am usually disappointed at the end of that day, because none or very few of my goals were accomplished. I wanted to make potato soup, take a shower, clean my room, do laundry, write my paper, read my text book, and spend time with God. That really isn't an absurd amount of things to do from 1pm till bedtime, which is around midnight, but even if I accomplished half of those things I would be proud of myself. But what what did I end up doing? Falling asleep (for 3 hours) as I read my textbook, spending probably around a total of 5 hours on Facebook throughout the day, and maybe making a sandwich or cooking some mac n cheese for myself. I would love to manage my time better. I think I would be so much happier if I did. HELP. I need one of those life coaches or something! Just kidding. That's lame. I just need self discipline.

Also, on a different note: It is funny how I can go months being completely content and sure of myself in my current "status" in life, and then suddenly, I am not so sure. Is this really what is best for me? Did I really choose to be single for a year or more for the reasons I say I have? Am I actually learning and benefiting from this time like I hoped I would? Who knows. I'll have to think on this.

Although I am in no way perfect and life is even less perfect, I am loving every second of it. Even the moments I am crying and desperate, it is great. My friends are wonderful, God's creation is astoundingly beautiful, and He loves me so much. I just wish I could love others and myself half as much as He loves us. Tomorrow I'll be talking to kids on campus about Jesus (for the second time!), and I'm excited. I am definitely not comfortable evangelizing, but I want to push myself out of my comfort zone. Hopefully it goes well, and I am sure I will learn something new.